Just a couple of twenty-something girls trying to figure it all out. We have daddy issues...so it was either write, or become strippers.
Monday, February 3, 2014
So.. You Wanna Be A Hater..
Friday, December 20, 2013
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Signs
Often times I find myself contemplating the universe and what is in store for my future. I've always been a believer in signs and a higher power, and up until this past year typically just blew them off. Now though, there have been more and more signs that I've started to really wonder about and try to figure out why they are happening. In doing some research I found this great article and it really resonated with me and helped me get a grasp on some things. My favorite part:
"Many times people don’t follow their hearts because oftentimes the guidance don’t make sense to the mind and the heart can’t be understood by the mind/logic, and that creates fear within the individual so they don’t go there.
It takes practice and trust to learn to discern with the heart, and to go where you don’t see the next step takes courage, but that’s where our real life is – where the heart leads us.
The mind is not a good leader as it’s driven by fear basically; fear of loosing something or fear of not getting something.
The heart wisdom simply says “go there, do that, call her, don’t talk to him” and so on and your role in this is to not ask “why?” because Truth never explains itself.
You only need to trust it."
We don't follow our hearts because we are scared and the mind usually always wins the battle with it's logic. If I had followed my heart I would be living in the south. Maybe alone, but hopefully with a certain someone. My biggest sign this past year has always been from one person. I've been going on more dates and trying to meet more people in hopes of finding someone to spend my life with. Without fail, when things are headed in the right direction with a new person, one person calls. A call that flips my world on its axis again. And as always, I'm left to put myself back together again and wonder if what was said was real or just lies.
I've thought to myself that the universe is sending some signal to him that I'm dating and having a good time, which results in a call or text or some sort of contact. How else could he possibly know? Hw could he know what I am up to 1000 miles away and we never talk? And literally, the guy that I was going on dates with just disappears. Every damn time. It's sabotage by the universe. I had a thought the other day that this keeps happening because I am not truly over him. It's unfinished business. If you've read any of the other blogs you know this would be my one regret in life.
I honesty thought I was over him, this last time, and then the message came that there was a good possibility of us seeing each other very soon. It didn't happen, and once again we aren't talking and I'm stuck wondering why he puts me through this and why I let it happen. So back to the signs it is. Trusting something that feels every bit right in your heart and every bit wrong in your mind is pretty much impossible. A battle in every sense of the word.
If I were to take the advice in this article and be fully open to the signs, I'd find a way to make what my heart wants become a reality. However, it will take the participation of the other person to make that happen and that isn't looking very promising. So, I'll keep going on with life as is. Energy wasted or not I know that what's meant to happen will happen. When the time is right. I'll be patient, have faith and trust that my journey will ultimately lead me to where I'm supposed to be.
Enjoy the article!
~Northern Star~
http://www.thehealersjournal.com/2013/07/07/how-to-recognize-and-read-signs-from-the-universe/
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
What you thought was real..
Monday, October 21, 2013
Making Peace
You see, it's been a month since we talked. Not the first time that has happened in the time that we have known each other. But this time was different. In the past, I would wait because I knew that you would come back. The fling that you thought was amazing would end and I would be there waiting. THANK GOD THAT HAS ENDED.
Trying to make contact after a month is hard...and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit happy when you did. Even though I miss you, it took one sentence to make me realize that I don't need you. I don't need you or the drama or the never-ending circle roller-coaster that we were riding for so long.
I've been ejected from the ride and am okay with it. My soul is better now, lighter and more free, because you aren't holding it down with empty promises of a future. My heart and mind are no longer conflicting with each other about the right thing to do and when to do it and how to do it. My soul is at peace.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
A Goodbye
Conflicted
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Friday, October 4, 2013
Sunday, September 15, 2013
will i ever get over you?
My first official music review!
Last week I posted a tweet about new country music artists getting headline tours after having only 2 singles out - which I think is absurd. I love music..all types..and especially new artists. I don't think that 2 singles and an EP, with a full album scheduled to be released, warrant a headlining tour. I don't even think one full length studio album should get you a headlining tour (but that is my opinion).
Said tweet was favorited, and I was invited to listen to and write a review on Doug Ratner & The Watchmen, or DRAW, and their 3rd studio release titled "Run With Me." In all honesty, I was probably way too excited... but that is how much I love new music and artists! Now based purely on his Twitter profile I was expecting a good mixture of country and rock n roll, Doug describes the music as "country fried rock n roll." I'm much more of a country girl than anything else...but I would compare his sound to that of Weezer, Green Day, and Sublime - maybe all of the mixed together. However, with the way music trends are currently, DRAW could end up being a marvelous cross-over artist playing in a variety of genres.
The album, which is still in production, was what one would expect after doing more research on Doug and the band. http://dougratner.com/about/doug-ratner/ Self-described as a "wacky guy," the album is no doubt a direct reflection of his personality. Check out his other band mates bios too - they seem like a rad bunch of dudes!
The song If You Wanna (which I have included the tour version YouTube video for) was by far my favorite on the album. It has a catchy beat and great chorus..and the video solidified my feelings for the song, it's just a feel good sing out loud song. You know there is always one song of any album that just sticks out - well this was it for me!
Nowhere To Hide was also one of my favorites, there is a sweet guitar solo about 3/4 of the way into the song. It made me want to bust out my old guitar hero guitar and jam out. BUT I was driving, so I had to settle for some badass air guitar moments instead.
Red Jeans is another song that should tell you more about Doug and his clothing preferences! Talking about men and their clothing styles - while most are sporting khakis and suits, he's rocking his red jeans and cowboy boots! I LOVE IT!
Music aside, Doug is a pretty interesting and incredible character. My opinion is based only on their website and music, but when someone is as passionate about music, and life in general, as Doug and the band are it shows. Seriously, read some of his tweets @dougratner ...or posts to his website http://dougratner.com/band-news/
Okay so here are some links so that you can check 'em out -
http://www.youtube.com/user/dougratner
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/lessons-well-learned-ep/id510029791?ign-mpt=uo%3D4
Thanks y'all - have a wonderful week and enjoy some new music! ~~Northern Star
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Drunk Last Night (part 2)
This song, not only speaks to us and me on a personal level, it tells a story about who some of us really are. For me, this has become somewhat of a familiar pattern in my life. I have begun to realize that I learn a lot more about a person when they are drinking, and especially when they call late at night at are drunk. Speaking from past and current experience, I can say that it is something I am all too familiar with and quite frankly don't appreciate.
Drunk Last Night (part 1)
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Monday, August 5, 2013
Funny How A Melody...
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Practicality
This is my life. With that one person. That one man. The one I'm overly hopeful for. The one everything comes natural with, but not easy. It's not been convenient or expected, but all of this is what makes our story ours. The obstacles and fight are what make it so great, they're what creates the best part of the love story...the smile, the happiness, the love that was never expected.



