A Goodbye

To: You

You. You know who you are. You're more than aware that this is for you. I've been wanting to do this for quite some time, but it never really felt right until now. There was always a glimpse of hope that this was all going to work out for the best, that the happily ever after was at the end of the tunnel. But, it wasn't. In any case, this isn't for you... if you read it great, it not that's just as well. This is for me. My closure. My goodbye. My taking back everything that I gave you. 

I know that I will forever be thankful that we met. You were any important part of my journey in life. An important part of who I have become in these past two years. I will never forget the day we met. You know that one summer love, that you had thought was going to have staying potential, but it turns out it didn't. 

March 2012. May 2012. ----- September 2013. Nice timeline. Memories. Lessons learned. You taught me a lot in this time. Honestly, some of the most random things and some really important things. You taught me that I could love again. Heartbroken more than once, I guess my love made me hopeful. I was hopeful. Up until today, I was still hanging on. 

Hanging on because I had finally made up my mind. Drop everything and go. I had made up my mind. I was going to tell you the next time we talked. That time never came. It's been 21 days. And it will never happen. It's done. 

The goodbye is usually the hardest part. I've said "goodbye" so many times with you and up until now they never felt real or right. Never felt like the right time. I was always going to be there when you were ready to come back, and I was. On more than one occasion. 

The time we spent together, it was good, really good in fact. I'm thankful for it. You'll always have a piece of my heart. We'll always have that one summer and then some. But now it's time to let you go. To free myself from you. To tell you thank you. To tell you that I loved you. To tell you goodbye. 

Goodbye........

From...... Me 

~Northern Star~

will i ever get over you?

i am almost positive that i never will. 

just when i think i am ready to say goodbye something changes my mind. 

we both have said goodbye before. 

but never permanently. 

that has been the hardest part. 

knowing that you will come back. 

knowing that i will be there waiting. 

nothing we ever do is good enough. 

never solidifying a decision. 

never making a plan. 

always hanging on to something. 

waiting for the other to make the big move. 

getting hopes up only to be let down. 

wishing that it were easier. 

but the only thing that has come easy is the love. 

the rest is a battle. 

i will be in the battle for a long time. 

until the time comes to walk away. 

when one more heartbreak happens. 

that is when goodbye will happen. 

but goodbye is just goodbye. 

i will move on with life. 

i will never get over you. 

~~Northern Star~~