Internet Tabs (revised)

I always get anxious when I have too many tabs open on my computer. 

Its like I'm committing to too many things at once. I can barely commit to my living arrangements or plans I have with friends tonight

  Commitment.

Such a strange and seemingly distant world. A world of being in the same place for too long, with the same people, with the same life. I wonder if I will ever be able to settle down. Id like to say yes but so far in my life the answer has been no. Yet I'm bad with change. My grandmother moves furniture around in her house and I act as if the whole world is coming to an end.
We get so comfortable in our lives. I am constantly amazed at the people who get married right out of high school and live in the same town they grew up in. Do they have regrets? Do they wish they would have done things differently?

Regrets.

 My best friend seems to change anything that might cause her regret. I envy that about her. I regret everything. No, really...EVERYTHING. I regret choosing to write with a black pen instead of blue, or leaving something in my car and having to walk all the way back (thats just pure laziness though.) Maybe it is what I like to call, "catholic guilt." I blame my mother for that. Its not her fault though. Unintentional on her end. Still whenever I do the littlest thing wrong, I imagine my mothers eyebrow arching in disapproval. 

Maybe that is it! We make decisions based on how we were raised. Good or Bad. Our parents are the ones who were responsible for teaching us right from wrong. As adults we subconciously take that into acount when we are making a descion. Is that what leads to regret?

So how do we do it? How do we live our life with no regret? How do we not settle too early on but also know when it is the right time to commit. Do we pick up and leave our entire life behind when we are unhappy? Or, do we stay and mend the broken pieces? Maybe there is some unknown middle-of-the-road choice instead. Somewhere we we can learn from our mistakes and change from the previous choices we have made. Either way....too many tabs open in my internet causes me much stress.

*Southern Belle