will i ever get over you?

i am almost positive that i never will. 

just when i think i am ready to say goodbye something changes my mind. 

we both have said goodbye before. 

but never permanently. 

that has been the hardest part. 

knowing that you will come back. 

knowing that i will be there waiting. 

nothing we ever do is good enough. 

never solidifying a decision. 

never making a plan. 

always hanging on to something. 

waiting for the other to make the big move. 

getting hopes up only to be let down. 

wishing that it were easier. 

but the only thing that has come easy is the love. 

the rest is a battle. 

i will be in the battle for a long time. 

until the time comes to walk away. 

when one more heartbreak happens. 

that is when goodbye will happen. 

but goodbye is just goodbye. 

i will move on with life. 

i will never get over you. 

~~Northern Star~~ 

My first official music review!

Hey y'all -- I hope the weekend wasn't as rough on you as it was me...but no worries I'm fully recovered! I wanted to share some awesome news and great music with y'all so let's get this party started!!

Last week I posted a tweet about new country music artists getting headline tours after having only 2 singles out - which I think is absurd. I love music..all types..and especially new artists. I don't think that 2 singles and an EP, with a full album scheduled to be released, warrant a headlining tour. I don't even think one full length studio album should get you a headlining tour (but that is my opinion).

Said tweet was favorited, and I was invited to listen to and write a review on Doug Ratner & The Watchmen, or DRAW, and their 3rd studio release titled "Run With Me."  In all honesty, I was probably way too excited... but that is how much I love new music and artists! Now based purely on his Twitter profile I was expecting a good mixture of country and rock n roll, Doug describes the music as "country fried rock n roll." I'm much more of a country girl than anything else...but I would compare his sound to that of Weezer, Green Day, and Sublime - maybe all of the mixed together. However, with the way music trends are currently, DRAW could end up being a marvelous cross-over artist playing in a variety of genres.

The album, which is still in production, was what one would expect after doing more research on Doug and the band. http://dougratner.com/about/doug-ratner/ Self-described as a "wacky guy," the album is no doubt a direct reflection of his personality. Check out his other band mates bios too - they seem like a rad bunch of dudes!

The song If You Wanna (which I have included the tour version YouTube video for) was by far my favorite on the album. It has a catchy beat and great chorus..and the video solidified my feelings for the song, it's just a feel good sing out loud song. You know there is always one song of any album that just sticks out - well this was it for me!

Nowhere To Hide was also one of my favorites, there is a sweet guitar solo about 3/4 of the way into the song. It made me want to bust out my old guitar hero guitar and jam out. BUT I was driving, so I had to settle for some badass air guitar moments instead.

Red Jeans is another song that should tell you more about Doug and his clothing preferences! Talking about men and their clothing styles - while most are sporting khakis and suits, he's rocking his red jeans and cowboy boots! I LOVE IT!

Music aside, Doug is a pretty interesting and incredible character. My opinion is based only on their website and music, but when someone is as passionate about music, and life in general, as Doug and the band are it shows. Seriously, read some of his tweets @dougratner ...or posts to his website http://dougratner.com/band-news/

Okay so here are some links so that you can check 'em out   -

www.dougratner.com 

www.facebook.com/dougratnerandthewatchmen

https://twitter.com/dougratner

http://www.youtube.com/user/dougratner
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/lessons-well-learned-ep/id510029791?ign-mpt=uo%3D4

And Now - WATCH THE VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Thanks y'all - have a wonderful week and enjoy some new music! ~~Northern Star 

Drunk Last Night (part 2)

Hey Y'all... 

So I'm posted the lyrics of Drunk Last Night,  in part because I absolutely love this song and love Eli Young Band, but mainly for what is about to be told in this blog. If you haven't heard of Eli Young Band you def need to check them out... they are amazing! I have been looking forward to this song coming out for so so long that I had it on repeat for an entire day when it first came out. 

This song, not only speaks to us and me on a personal level, it tells a story about who some of us really are. For me, this has become somewhat of a familiar pattern in my life. I have begun to realize that I learn a lot more about a person when they are drinking, and especially when they call late at night at are drunk. Speaking from past and current experience, I can say that it is something I am all too familiar with and quite frankly don't appreciate. 

False hope, fake promises, a life that may or may not be possible.... All things that are said, and might even be genuinely meant by the person saying such things. Saying things when you are drunk that you can't say when are sober. We've all been there, and we've all done it, and we've all had those mornings when we can't remember what happened the night before. I'm the first to admit that black out drunk WAS my favorite past time. I have said and done plenty of things that I don't remember. BUT, I am well beyond that phase in my life. And in all reality, I'd rather have a grown-up conversation about the situation than to have a drunken conversation and a completely different sober conversation. 

I believe that we speak our mind more freely when we are under the influence, maybe because our minds are impaired or because we are feeling less shy and more willing to speak the truth without any regard for the consequence. Not thinking what the other person is going to feel, or how they will react. 

In the song it says "I swear it's the last time every time" .... when is the last time? When does it finally happen? When both sides are ready for it to happen? When fate is ready for it to happen? What if it doesn't happen? 

Reality is tough to face when someone is even the slightest bit closed off. To get the truth out, to make plans, to discuss rather than have a one-sided conversation.... but in the end it's all supposed to work out right? We each have a life plan and map and are all just on our merry way through this game called life, hoping that we get the right card or make the right decision to move forward one space instead of back two. 

Please do check out the song and the band... they are pretty great and will put a smile on your face and hopefully make you wanna have a little singing and dancing party!!! 

Love y'all ~~ Northern Star 

Drunk Last Night (part 1)

I got a little drunk last night There's something 'bout a midnight rain.                                             

Staring at the ceiling fan I couldn't get you off my brain.                                                                  

I guess I wasn't thinking straight I couldn't tell wrong from right

I went ahead and called you up I got a little drunk last night                                

I brought it all up, got it all out               What is it worth, to both of us now                                    

It's off my chest, but never off my mind      

Two drinks in, keep that hurt,You feel bad, and I feel worse  

I swear it's the last the last time every time                             Don't know why                                                                                                                           

Might've been a song on the radio 

Might've been nothing, baby I don't known.                          

Might've been a little too tired to fight                                            

Might've been I got a little drunk last night 

I got a little too far gone I was talking way too loud                                                                                 

I don't remember what I said I just remember breaking down

I brought it all up, got it all out              What is it worth, to both of us now                                   It's off my chest, but never off my mind      

Two drinks in, keep that hurt,You feel bad, and I feel worse  

I swear it's the last the last time every time                            Don't know why

Might've been a song on the radio

Might've been nothing, baby I don't know

Might've been a girl who looked like you

Might've been a fluke, might've been a full moon

Might've been a little too tired to fight

Might've been I got a little drunk

I brought it all up, got it all out               What is it worth, to both of us now

It's off my chest, but never off my mind

Two drinks in, keep that hurt,You feel bad, and I feel worse

I swear it's the last the last time every time

I got a little drunk last night          I got a little drunk last night

Thought I could keep it all inside      

But I got a little drunk last

~~Northern Star ~~

True...

This.

~ Northern Star